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18 or 19
3/24/99

The following is a transcript from icb.
<sonic> i had a really fucked up dream
<reason> uh oh.
<sonic> hee hee. want to hear it?
<reason> sure
<sonic> ok.  so cp is a big huge building, very institutional like a
<sonic> school or something
<sonic> and there is a guy there who is really young, like 18 or 19,
<sonic> who i'm so strongly attracted to that it's unpleasant and i
<sonic> can't really get work done and i want to move somewhere where
<sonic> i never see him
<sonic> (this guy doesn't exist irl)
<reason> heh
<sonic> and there is another guy who looks like him and i can't tell
<sonic> them apart, except the one i'm attracted to wears blue
<sonic> sneakers
<sonic> the 2nd guy keeps coming up to me and kissing me.  and i'll be
<sonic> confused as to which one he is until i look at his sneakers
<reason> hah
<sonic> the one i'm attracted to is shy and doesn't pay any attention
<sonic> to me, and i'm unclear whether or not i have any sort of
<sonic> involvement with him at all, since i get him mixed up with the
<sonic> guy who kisses me
<sonic> so then i'm going to go to switzerland, and i'm packing my
<sonic> bags.  but listlessly, as i am kind  of hoping the 1st guy
<sonic> will seek me out.  but then i don't know if he will cuz i'm
<sonic> unclear as to whether or not there is 
<sonic> anything at all going on with him.
<reason> k
<sonic> i wander around outside in the snow, and find my mother and a
<sonic> bunch of people enjoying a chinese banquet outdoors.  so i
<sonic> join them.  my mother is being kind of odd and eating from
<sonic> other people's bowls, etc. i'm sort of 
<sonic> trying to help her and at the same time i'm wondering why the
<sonic> hell i'm there
<sonic> and then you show up and initiate some sort of relationship
<sonic> talk. and i'm confused cuz suddenly it is as if i'm still
<sonic> going out with you, so what is up with these other guys?!  and
<sonic> so we start talking and it's so 
<sonic> important to me to sort this out, and the alarm clock rang
<sonic> and i was like "working on my relationship with frank is the
<sonic> most important thing right now!!!" and hit the snooze
<sonic> heh
<reason> haha silly lady.
<sonic> ya silly dream
<sonic> it's ironic though.  when i first went to college, i wasn't
<sonic> used to so many white people.  i couldn't tell these 2 big
<sonic> tall kinda heavy white guys with brown hair apart- john and
<sonic> bruce.  one time i said to john, "i 
<sonic> think you're cute, bruce" and he left the room in a huff. 


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