<sonic> i had a really fucked up dream <reason> uh oh. <sonic> hee hee. want to hear it? <reason> sure <sonic> ok. so cp is a big huge building, very institutional like a <sonic> school or something <sonic> and there is a guy there who is really young, like 18 or 19, <sonic> who i'm so strongly attracted to that it's unpleasant and i <sonic> can't really get work done and i want to move somewhere where <sonic> i never see him <sonic> (this guy doesn't exist irl) <reason> heh <sonic> and there is another guy who looks like him and i can't tell <sonic> them apart, except the one i'm attracted to wears blue <sonic> sneakers <sonic> the 2nd guy keeps coming up to me and kissing me. and i'll be <sonic> confused as to which one he is until i look at his sneakers <reason> hah <sonic> the one i'm attracted to is shy and doesn't pay any attention <sonic> to me, and i'm unclear whether or not i have any sort of <sonic> involvement with him at all, since i get him mixed up with the <sonic> guy who kisses me <sonic> so then i'm going to go to switzerland, and i'm packing my <sonic> bags. but listlessly, as i am kind of hoping the 1st guy <sonic> will seek me out. but then i don't know if he will cuz i'm <sonic> unclear as to whether or not there is <sonic> anything at all going on with him. <reason> k <sonic> i wander around outside in the snow, and find my mother and a <sonic> bunch of people enjoying a chinese banquet outdoors. so i <sonic> join them. my mother is being kind of odd and eating from <sonic> other people's bowls, etc. i'm sort of <sonic> trying to help her and at the same time i'm wondering why the <sonic> hell i'm there <sonic> and then you show up and initiate some sort of relationship <sonic> talk. and i'm confused cuz suddenly it is as if i'm still <sonic> going out with you, so what is up with these other guys?! and <sonic> so we start talking and it's so <sonic> important to me to sort this out, and the alarm clock rang <sonic> and i was like "working on my relationship with frank is the <sonic> most important thing right now!!!" and hit the snooze <sonic> heh <reason> haha silly lady. <sonic> ya silly dream <sonic> it's ironic though. when i first went to college, i wasn't <sonic> used to so many white people. i couldn't tell these 2 big <sonic> tall kinda heavy white guys with brown hair apart- john and <sonic> bruce. one time i said to john, "i <sonic> think you're cute, bruce" and he left the room in a huff.
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